limits part ii

It hurts so goddamn much but I just can't take it all away.

You receive severe blows to your most sensitive parts but you just can't do anything about it. You fall down to your knees every time you see it happening.

My eyes cast on the gray skies above. I look for nothing. I hear nothing. I pretend I know nothing.

You tell yourself that this is righteous. Anybody would say the same thing. Everybody would. But, in the pits of your naïve understanding, you know you're playing the fool. You're too sightless to see through the cloak. Too afraid to peer into the darkness. Too intoxicated in your dreams to accept the truth. Much less realize it.

You ask the question the same number of times as your heart beats in a day. Even more.

Why do I choose to endure this?

Now you're really in it. The trouble you had imagined you would never get yourself into for the entirety of your existence. You allow yourself to be consumed by the situation you dreaded the most.

How far will I go?

How long would I last?

You know you can make the pain all go away. Away with all your hopes. Hopes that only bring confusion. Confusion that disappears when you're blind. Blind until you see it again.

And I see it again. Don't worry. I still haven't reached it.

~ ~ ~ to be continued?

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