conclusion *

Writing this with a pen on paper would be hard. My right knuckle still feels sore from when it kissed the concrete walls too much in the room downstairs.

Typing shouldn't take long. I can't see clearly when salt and water come out of my eyes every split second. They drown out my thoughts too easily.

For a moment that seemed eternity, I saw my miracle happen.

The one that changed my life.

The one that made me take a different road. A road I didn't dream of taking for as long as I can remember.

I went out of the way for I saw it fit.

I was risking my neck for anything. Forgetting everything I believed in. Letting go of what I was looking for.

I know I was. I didn't care.

Funny how eternity lasted for only six hundred and twenty four hours.

I guess I didn't have to wait to break apart.

I guess I didn't have to reach any limits to die.

And I guess I don't know what it will take to recover from death, too.

This one's for the miracle that made me see something unbelievable.

For the one that made the world smaller, and time shorter.

The one that made me taste bitterness very sweet. I didn't like it, but I was wanting more each day.

The one that had my hopes up so high even I couldn't reach it. I wonder if I ever will.

The one that made me experience the first time something I said I don't, and won't, do.

The one I was hoping to be there everyday.

The one I am hoping to be here right now.

The one I will be looking for tomorrow.

This could be the last time I'd write.

The last time I'd hope.

The last time I'd wait.

The last time I'd pray for a miracle.

I'm seeing water again.

My hand is screaming in pain.

I guess this is goodbye for now.

* an untimely ending

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